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Worthless Piece of Shit by Katerina423 Worthless Piece of Shit by Katerina423
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One of the rare times when I think I don't want any misinterpretation.

This picture was taken a LONG time ago. About two years ago actually. Those that are familiar with my work will notice that it was taken at the same time as Echoes and Damned. The picture was perfectly appropriate for that situation.

I worked on and titled this image not that long ago. Probably in the beginning of the year. The titled was prompted by a situation I was in, and it was perfectly appropriate then.

I am now posting this image because it seems to be perfectly appropriate now, given the current situation.

The genesis of this image is interesting. It seems to be constantly coming back to me. It's appropriate always because it is such a blanket statement of anger and hurt aimed at either yourself, others, or both at the same time.

"You are a..."
"I am a..."
"You think I am a..."


The meaning of this has evolved so much to me. It is the pinnacle of the most recurring human emotions: anger and pain. Sometimes I need a reminder of that. Perhaps one day I'll actually be able to create something new in the moment, but right now.. I think the reminder is important enough in itself. It is recurring, so you cannot wait until it passes. It will happen again. So just fucking deal with it now.

I am emotionally and artistically blind, deaf, and dumb. And this is only part of the process to battle all of that. And into battle again we go...
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sorry it's long, cause here's 3 critiques in 1 post. Can not pull these apart. For one can never exist without the other.. )

hi Kat
you asked me in your news article to critique one of your photographs, and I decided to take you up on that. That was BEFORE I had even ever seen your gallery. I clicked. And swallowed. Those are different pictures than the happy nature and springs 'acoming!- shots I've been seeing a lot lately. So I got a bit of a scare and thought I can't do that! Opened up the ailing minds folder, and then there was this face just looking at me as it it wanted me to say something. I sat there looking from a distance for a bit. Then I clicked again. And I am so glad I did. For I have now seen some of the most amazing photographs I've ever seen in my life!
In yr comment you indicated that really this was a "series" of 3. So I felt I had to look at those too, before really being able to say something about this one. And I'm so glad I did, because these 3 pictures, for the time frame taken, and posted ~ AND for some OTHER things ~which I'll get to in a bit~ they irrevocably belong TOGETHER. These can never be pulled apart. Impossible. I can not talk about this one, without talking about the 2 others. But I decided to post here, since this was the last image posted, but also cause it was the one that initially drew me in.

So, I've spent a good hour, looking at these 3 images. Looked. And read. I can not comment on the technical aspects of the photograph(s). However, since I feel, myself, and also reading other peoples comments, about how these pictures evoked so many strong feelings, I think technically you probably did pretty good. I wouldn't say anything needs to be improved on these images either. For the comments, and your own replies to them, are telling that you managed to convey ~ to OTHERS~ what you wanted. VERY well. I also see that from the kind of comments on your 3 pictures, there are really basically 2 groups. The courageous. And the scared. TWO. That word *two* brings us to some interesting points.

Worthless Piece of Shit: I was struck by the duality I felt here. This sad face.. and at the same time, so knowing. Do you realize yourself, that this face actually has TWO faces? A dead face, and an alive face. The right side of the image, is sad, the eye dull, beaten down. But the left side, the eye has a spark. Shows fight, and character. Its not only feeling. Put something over the image, cover up each side and look at the other. Do you see it? Not only is it alive, it's defiant, and there's fight, knowledge and wisdom there. Another aspect I noticed, is the wall. Very relevant. We'll get to that.

Echoes: it looks like even though this image evokes very strong feelings in people, it's the one of the series of 3 that they seem most comfortable with. Comments, and favs, and views. It scares people, and at the same time, they can connect. Remember TWO? Again, here we again see TWO faces. The one who screams and looks scared. And the face shown in the reflection. It's supposed to be your reflection. But it's not a mirror we're seeing. It's a wall. Also, walls can't move. That would be the steadiest thing to hold on to for balance. You have your hand on the wall. But look at the face in the wall.. you're not only holding onto the wall, but also on the other face. That face is not a reflection at all. That's the second part. The soothing face. The eyes are soft. The mouth seems to be forming a kiss. And is leaning in. Towards the scared face. That whole wall image is soothing, you can nearly hear it talk to you, in you. "there there, it's okay, I'm here, I will not go, I can not go".. And you're holding onto that other face, the one that's not scared. The one that knows, is peaceful, and STEADY, unmoving. Knowledgeable, wise. The stronger one. Scared and consoling. Happiness and unhappiness. Kissing each other. SO close together. So close that they're in fact touching each other. On a wall that can never move. One can not be without the other.

Damned: The one with the least faves. And views. And the one where you show more fear, than in either one of the other two. Where you're even more bare, if that's even possible. The fact we see no clothes and the outline of a bare breast is adding to make us realize that. But I see two faces again. this time its the left side of the image that seems beaten down, but the eye on the right side is defiant. Cover half the image, and look at the eye. And again, we have the 2nd image on the wall. Even though the girl hangs forward, mouth open, doing all to show total defeat, her own relfection on the wall is all but defeated. It stands steady on the wall. Straight, as if she's got arms on her hips saying.. come on than, what do you want? She's on the wall, the strong one. And all the strong one is, is the damned one's reflection. It's her. There's only 1 person here. Only the damned one doesn't see it, cause she's looking the wrong way..
But she knows the other one is there..

The courageous. And the scared. Irrevocably linked together. They can not be pulled apart. They are one. That is the echo. The cycle. And therefore it will repeat itself. Like the tide. In -out -in- out. Coming and Going. Once you know, it may be still scary, but maybe less so. Echo is like thoughts, let them pass. Don't try grab them, they're not meant to be grabbed. They're meant to float over you. Like the steam rising above you when you lay with your head back in a hot bathtub. Relax, dont move. Just look at them. Let them float..
(and if you didn't manage this time.. oh well.. scream a little, and start over again.. )

In all: a striking series of 3 photographs that have a lot to say, in their simple black and white. (colour would have NEVEr been able to do this, it would have distracted from the raw emotions)
I think Kat is one gutsy photographer, daring to share what I have never seen anybody else do before in my life.
Also, she has achieved something that I have never seen before either. Usually photographers take shots of something they see, but rarely have I seen something like this.
Kat managed to shoot.. not out. She shot IN.

She was taking these shots, to show US the pictures. I now wonder if, and hope, that she will allow these pictures to also talk to herself, (the both of em ;) ) as much as she wants for them to talk to us..

love you Kat! :tighthug:
xxx
Lou
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BillyNikoll Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
this is really dramatic!
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Oseltamivir Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I've seen this look on my own face many times.  You really captured the feeling perfectly.
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TornadoMetVolcano Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i always was and always will be a worthless piece of shit.
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inthegrasps Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2010
God, your work is amazing ,you should be put down as the Shakespeare of photography. Your stuff makes me wanna just..kill my self for not doing it first Even though I'm not a girl and I probably can't do something quite like that. But at one point I'm gonna put photography up but screw me. I can't top your art , no one can.
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
oh you do me more credit than i deserve. Thank you for all your kindness.
You may very well be better than me if you practice! Never hesitate to give it a try and push yourself because we all started somewhere and have to continue learning. Whenever I look at the work on dA, i walk away with the same feeling you described.. "I can't possibly ever do anything that good". But it's a great motivator to try.. and often that alone works!
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inthegrasps Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2010
Eh ,I'm not much of the photographer I'm more of a poet and storyteller and sometimes something on gimp , but its been so long since I've had a camera that my eyes blink to the flash of one.
You can take a look at my gallery if you like.
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supn9 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2009
:library: , let me guess..the romance section? :D
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
huh? :confused:
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Desertlion Featured By Owner May 1, 2008   Writer
no misinterpretations?
but i'm soooo good at those!
awww:dygel:
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inspiredimperfection Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2008
i swear this made me feel like i was looking at the mirror on the inside of my closet.
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jzcj5 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2008  Hobbyist Photographer
This one escaped me thus far. I dont know how. I think I can understand this shot. I have looked through a lot of comments and this has sparked some very intense comments for sure. Although some of them are a bit off, at least you know you hit a nerve, even if its the one you were aiming for or not. I always like your images but after looking through your gallery, I am seeing that the complete works add up to an extreme loneliness. It is very moving and it also makes me that much happier you and Steven found each other. This picture brings about so much but its a definite love/hate relationship. I think I get here enough and I dont want to relive it but Im glad to know that someone understands :)
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incubuscharm Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2008
very well done....a picture is worth a 1000 words...and this is an example. :D
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Northcumbria Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2007
I've featured it in my journal : [link]

Tell me if you want it to be removed.
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2007  Hobbyist General Artist
absolutely not. Thank you very much for the feature :)
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incomplete-sanity Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2007
this is beautiful

so evocative
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2007  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you
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Savage-J0k3r Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2007  Hobbyist Photographer
Gosh, its a great shot. I wish I could write more words here, to describe how beautyfull the pic is and what I feel, but my english is simply to bad. Such a shame!!!
Nevertheless you did a bombastic shot!!! I love it!!!
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2007  Hobbyist General Artist
I think you did a pretty good job anyway. Thank you so much. I'm glad you like this :)
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Irthfather Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2007   Writer
Gods, you can see so much from the look in your eyes.......
volatility~
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2007  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: :heart:
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Irthfather Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2007   Writer
:hug:
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ewlala Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2007
I love all the emotion in it. I feel that I can really relate to this piece.
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reverendmoss Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2006
Your work is so dark and evocative. You take me down paths i'd sooner forget, but remind me they're worth remembering if only to avoid recurrence.
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
You rock. That's all there is to it :glomp: :heart: Thank you.
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orleck Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2006   Photographer
you're such a sweetheart it is difficult to see this kind of emotion from you, if you know what i mean? just makes me wanna give you a hug...

if power is a part of it, you got it. powerful.


take care :rose:

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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
Power is definitely a part of it... probably 90% of it. Sort of an act of power to show you're not scared. and sometimes that just arises out of really shitty situations :shrug: that's life, right? :)
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orleck Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2006   Photographer
well, we all have are balances... that may be life at one point, and then it'll flip flop to something completely different at another. gotta make the 'best of it' but that isn't entirely possible with every bit of life.

take care :rose:
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fogotten-soul Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2006   Photographer
i just think no1 is worthles..in a good or bad way, no 1 is worthless..
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
i couldn't agree more. But that doesn't stop you from feeling like that sometimes when shit's bad.
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HeyHeySteevay Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2006
raw. i love it
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
:D
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Yazzphoto Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2006   Photographer
You know, I had to come back and re-visit this peice. Why am I so drawn to the comments that everyone feels they need to make? It makes for facinating reading... Everyone has to comment, and so many have to do more than send a hug. This must be one of the most provocotive works around here, it pushes so many to respond.

I think you are very brave to post it, and indeed, much stronger than you think, to read the feedback it inspires.


Yasmin
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
I've always been blown away by how many people choose to say things that they normally wouldn't say to someone's face... but it's ok online. You're protected by anonymity and so you just shoot off at the mouth. You know, even when I post something this personal.. i always prefer people to just comment on the art of it and ignore the outside elements.. but that's hard to do for some.

Your words really mean a lot to me.. I can't say that i feel particularly brave for posting this, but it doesn't matter what I think.. the fact that YOU think so, is all i need to know... so thank you :hug:
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Quemaqua Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2006  Professional Writer
A beautiful piece, love. Extremely moving and very real. The kind of image that makes you want to give somebody a hug, and fast. :+fav:
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
:) thank you my friend
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fogotten-soul Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2006   Photographer
hmmm its sad u gave it that name...but actually it kinda seems what shes feeling...very good work
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
that's interesting.. i would like to know.. why do you think that it's sad that i gave it that name?
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Yazzphoto Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2006   Photographer
Hmmm, online therapy. Does DA know of the new branch of services they are offering?

Interesting reading everyone's take on this. I'll have to add my bit too, I guess.

Second commandment: 'Love your neighbour as you love yourself.' FIRST, you must love yourself, before you'll ever know how to love your neighbour.

Sending some love to help you along... :hug:
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
smartest words you could say... it's more appreciated than I can tell you. thank you :hug:
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Belenen Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
In those eyes I see deep woundings and incredible strength... sometimes it is the bravest thing in the world just to keep breathing. :heart:
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In response to the comment below (not in reply because I don't really care to hear a response from the person) -- the notion that you cannot move on with your life until you no longer feel pain. That is not a false notion; until you work through the roots of your pain you will never be able to live fully.

Pain is a symptom that tells a person, "you need healing!" If you broke your leg, you would know something was wrong because of the pain, and unless you went to a doctor and got help, you would likely be crippled for the rest of your life. If you tried to just live through it, you would suffer unnecessarily, whereas if you got help, the pain would gradually go away and you'd be able to live almost as if you never were hurt. With deep pain, the fastest way to heal is not to 'keep moving on' but to stop, seek help, and give yourself permission to be weak, vulnerable, hurting, and useless for a time. Choosing to stay in pain indefinitely rather than breaking down and seeking help leaves you less of a person than you could otherwise be. A broken and properly healed bone is stronger than before -- so is a heart. Obviously a broken bone (or heart) that relies only on time to produce healing is far less useful and more prone to breaking than it was before.

Healing is possible. Seeking help is the most constructive thing one can do -- whether in the form of a friend or a counselor or a God/dess or even just nourishing yourself and affirming yourself. I've been deeply wounded, but I've chosen to seek healing, and though I was crippled with pain and pretty much useless to everyone for like a year, now I am at least 3 times as loving, giving, strong, productive, creative... and everyone in my life would agree. I can't express how much I am delighted that I chose that.

Yes, life is painful. But if you seek healing, in between the times life hurts you life can be so beautiful and joyous, and the more you heal, the less a new pain can break you. My own scars will always be there to remind me of what I've been through -- I don't need to keep the wounds open to know that what happened was real.

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This is how powerful your photos are, Katerina... they spark intense emotion, powerful reaction. All truth is catalytic, and your photos are so full of honesty....

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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
I couldn't agree with you more. Absolutely couldn't agree more. And can't thank you enough for adding in your thoughts to this piece and the discussion around it. Truly enjoyed reading what you have to say.. thank you :hug: :heart:
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Belenen Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for responding! it's a touchy subject so I am relieved that you agree with me. :hug:
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
:) :heart:
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oibyrd Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2006  Hobbyist Digital Artist
this makes my heart hurt. :(
:cling:.
I wish for you the very best - that is all I can say.
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: :heart:
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Emanaia Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2006
Sometimes I think you take a look at my life before you create your work. *Huge Hugs* I know it will be a long process hon and I know you will have the strength and support from those that matter to get through it all and come out on top.
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Katerina423 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you.. and i put all the gratefulness and warmth in those two words that i can. it means a lot. thank you, so very much :heart:
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Emanaia Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2006
Welcome dearest. It was a majorly emotionally piece of work that I will always remember and look at again from time to time. :hug:
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tinytinabear Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2006  Student Writer
Full of anger and pain! It is a very bold piece of work!
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seattleslough Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2006
Ouch,

I haven't been keeping up with your situation as much as I should. I'm sorry that something has put you in this place again.

You've come back from here before, and we can only hope and assume that you will again this time.
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